Hey ya'll!
Wow I can't believe it's already been three weeks...but on the other hand I can't believe it's only been three weeks! God is such an amazing God and what he can all pack into the mind, heart and soul in three weeks makes me so happy :)
The Scriptures...that's pretty much been the title on my past week. I felt it coming and sensed it coming when everybody who prays over you prays 'unlock the scriptures to this child'! That's when you step back, open your hands and just say 'Jesus here I am'! And he is faithful :) I had a lady challenge me to read only five verses one day in my entire seven hour set in the prayer room. Now being as holy as I am (that's a joke) I didn't even consider this and went on to read my 20+ chapters that all good Christian scholars read. The Holy Spirit convicted me within five minutes of me starting. I sat there with my eyes closed and I knew that I wouldn't be able to open them and focus until I surrendered this to Jesus. So...I told God I would try this for one day, if it wasn't his voice speaking then I would end up feeling yuck, empty and deprived like I usually do if I don't stuff myself with Scripture.
Guys I wish you could enter my head and heart to feel and experience what went on for the next three hours. It was as if Jesus unlocked every single word in those five verses and each word had a thousand mysteries and questions attached to it. I couldn't believe it! Here I was a girl who has read the bible through and through and these WORDS were just jumping out of the page and changing my heart. With every word my heart cried out to God in praise of who he was, questions about who I was and who I was to be and how I can absolutely ruin myself in order to bring him more glory. I am so pumped!! I can't explain to you how excited I am to study the scriptures for the rest of my life! It's no longer a novel for me that I hope to read more times then the world record, it's a book with words that have meanings deeper then I will ever be able to comprehend.
I don't want any of you to get the idea that God is calling his children to read only five verses a day. In fact I don't believe this at all! I am not throwing out my rapid fire bible readings, I am simply adding hours of simply meditating on a word or a verse at a time.
I have joined the Prophetic Dance Team on the NightWatch! Some of you are going to ask me what this means...I don't exactly know. I am just excited to be dancing in a setting where Christ is the centre, I want to soak it all in and take it home to the classes I teach. I'll make sure to keep you up to date with this as I get more involved!
Now for a little raw truth. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before but my Fire in the Night track is abnormally starving for Jesus. Our leaders say it every day 'you guys are so hungry!!' I love it. Being surrounded by hunger just gives me a drive to hunger more and more and more! It's a blessing I never want to take for granted. So the other day one of our leaders was simply praying before a class and he asked the Holy Spirit to come and fill us. Normally we all stand there with 'mmhm's' and 'ahaaa's' however this time was radically different. As soon as he said those words my body was covered in goose bumps and my friend beside me began to weep uncontrollably. The Holy Spirit hit our class powerfully!! For the next two hours we enjoyed Jesus as he took pleasure in us through His Spirit. I must admit at moments my legalistic, conservative being began to rise up but Jesus did a wonderful thing with this! The whole time my heart was saying 'God whatever you want to do in me I say yes, Holy Spirit whatever you want to do I say yes! Just please reveal it to me that whatever is going on is truth. Confirm it through your Word.' So...from that moment on everything that happened in the class one of our leaders had scripture to back it up. I couldn't believe it! Every doubt that raised up in my mind he shouted out a scripture that overtook my fleshly, over thinking mind. Obviously it was two hours full of visions and crazy encounters with Jesus so I won't share it all! However I will share one story that encouraged me a lot!
At this one moment I was leaning on my knees and I felt my lips go dry, water started to drip out of my mouth and my eyes got teary. I was breathing very heavily and I felt my hair blow back. Immediately in my mind I knew that this was the feeling of completing a marathon. If any of you have had the opportunity to do this you know that nothing else feels quite like it! The feeling of accomplishing your goal and your body feeling as exhausted as it ever has! Suddenly you don't care that your lips are as dry as a hippo and spit is dripping down your chin. I heard God just speak over me 'Beloved you have no idea how hard you've been running! Beloved you have no idea how hard you've been running!" I was confused and my heart cried back 'No Lord no! I need to run so much harder, I've barely begun running!' Then he spoke so softly to my heart saying "I am so pleased with you, you have been running harder then you could ever understand or realize. Your eyes are focused on my eyes of fire and that's the only reason you have not noticed how exhausted you could be. Now rest child, rest in the shadow of my wings." I couldn't believe it!! Jesus is so faithful! To hear your King sing straight to your heart telling you that you've completed a battle and are walking into a time of rest is so amazing!
I hope you all have wonderful weeks as we enter mid October! Craziness! I love you all and am praying for you :) ...and at the request of many I will try very hard to begin writing more often!
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