Comin home :)

     Well it's my last night here in KC, two hours past my bedtime and I can't sleep!  It's so weird to think that my life is going to be radically different in twenty four hours then it has been in the past three months.  I look back prior to three months ago and I am so incredibly thankful that Christ led me here for this season of my life.  All the glory goes to Him!
     The Lord this week has been challenging me in the areas of trusting Him, believing that He is the Reconciling God, the Author and Perfecter of my faith, the Constant God, the Better Than God etc.  I have to admit thinking about going home I have allowed worry and fear to spring up in my thoughts.  I know what the statistics say, I know what happens to a person who comes home from a radical time with God, I understand that challenges of home.  However the Lord has been poking at my heart asking me how much I trust Him.  Do I allow Hebrews 12:12 to really change my life?  If I truly trust Jesus' words, the only fully perfect Man to be the perfecter of my faith suddenly it releases me to live with far more freedom and thanksgiving.  I love to imagine Jesus in His secret inner room skillfully sculpting my frame and placing His fear and wonder into my body and into my story thinking about this exact moment.  He knew I would be heavy hearted, He knew that I so desperately wanted to throw my talents out there and multiply them during the time I will be at home instead of simply grasping onto them and only "surviving" in the so called "normal" world.  He designed this moment, it is His will, and He calls me to live it out with a heart of praise and thanksgiving.  Honestly as much as worry and fear are knocking at my door I am so excited to go home for three weeks!  Sitting down with Jesus and inquiring of Him what sort of heart of expectation I should have, what my goals should be, what my boundaries should be, and inquiring of Him in how much more ability I will have to love Him at the end of this time makes me beyond pumped!  All I want is to love Him more, all I need is Him.  He is my goal, the object of my affection.
     That being said you can pray for us five Canadian's as we head home!  I'm looking forward to watching snow appear on the ground in the warmth of a vehicle!  Christmas here we come!!!