Hey everybody! This past week has been exhausting to say the least. My body certainly does not enjoy the night watch schedule and I have now gone several nights with not even five minutes of sleep. We are taking many classes a week in which some require much homework. I also am working in the prophecy and healing rooms on top of being involved in prophetic dance here at the missions base. To sum it all up…I love it! Yes I am exhausted and sometimes have to REALLY set my mind on not being cranky but there is nothing else I would rather be doing! I had the option to change to days and join a different internship that runs during the day but I said no. Some of my friends thought I was absolutely insane for saying no seeing as I am not sleeping well but I love the nights! I love the special anointing that is on the nights, I love the thought of redeeming my years of choosing to dwell in darkness during the night and replacing it with six hours of prayer in the night. The greatest thing I love about the night is knowing that I am spitting in the devil's face every night I get up. Even a year ago I know this would not have been possible. I used to struggle with depression and getting less then ten hours a night would be an open door to thoughts of suicide ringing through my mind all day. I remember waking up some mornings and I physically was unable to get out of bed. I remember being in high school and calling my mom from school asking her to pick me up in the middle of the day because I couldn't get myself to drive home and I couldn't get myself to go to class. Our Lord truly is a redeemer! When I met with my doctor this summer and told him my plans of coming to IHOP and being on the night watch schedule he warned me and highly suggested me to not leave home with the state I was in and fore sure not be on night shift. I was diagnosed with mono this past spring and it was still very evident in the way my body behaved this September that I was far from being healed. My first week here I had no idea how I would do it! The Lord confirmed over and over and over that this was where I was meant to be and praise be to God I can confidently say that depression does not exist in my life! Of course the devil throws fiery darts at me but the Lord has gifted me with such discernment that I immediately distinguish them with the truth that He has written on my heart. I love God! I love night watch! I love praying!
Having said that though I would really appreciate you are my supporters to partner with me in prayer that my body would begin to accept that schedule I need to be on right now. Seeing as I sleep so little my digestive system has not been operating properly either so I would appreciate prayer for this as well! I love you guys and I would love to hear your prayer requests for this week!
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