Weakness

Hey everybody!!
     Well my past week has been somewhat of a roller coaster...I somewhat feel like I am 12 again when emotions were as up and down as the mountains in Alberta.  My lack of sleep decided to manifest about two weeks ago.  I have been surviving off of 1-3 hours of sleep EXCEPT for last night!!  I slept EIGHT HOURS...I feel like I could run a marathon!  Please continue to pray for good nights for me.  I finally broken down yesterday with my classmates and just was honest about possibly not being able to finish the internship because of lack of sleep.  I was simply DONE...they were so incredibly encouraging and up lifting.  They surrounded me in prayer and I SLEPT!  Ahh!!!  Many of them stated that they had no idea I was having trouble sleeping; how I seemed just my normal joyful self.  I guess I need to learn to be honest with those around me in regards to my weakness'.  It obviously pays off!
     The Lord has been so incredibly faithful to me this week in circumstances and situations.  Stuart Greaves was working on his final project for graduate school and overheard that I was a dancer/choreographer.  He asked me to help him out in producing a music video for his project.  It was SO MUCH FUN!  There were three of us who choreographed and we were each given a handful of dancers to teach and then bring it all together.  Man have I ever missed that!!  Apparently I've managed to miss late rehearsals, and missing meals to practice and having to do the same dance five times within ten minutes.  The Lord was so gracious and placed favour over me and now Stuart is giving me HUGE opportunities in the arts within IHOP.  I'm not sure yet how this will all play out but I am beyond stoked to see what I will all be involved in within this next year here at IHOP.
     Lately the Lord has been speaking to me about the importance of being one who asks for ALL of God.  Matthew 11:12 has become one of my favourite scriptures to meditate on all day and night.  This passage states "From the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force."  It absolutely amazes me every time I stop to think of the fact that David in the bible did not have the opportunity to receive as much of God as he wished.  I truly believe that David was a man who longed to greater revelation of God and a deeper lifestyle of intimacy yet this was not offered to him!  Yet us being a generation after John the Baptist has the opportunity to live with as much of God as we wish.  It's up to us!  How far are we will to go?  What are we willing to let go of?  What are we willing to take hold of?  I long to be one who will stand before the judgement seat and will be able to confidently state that I ran as hard as I could've.  I want to everyday be one who challenges myself in why I am limiting myself to only what I have of God.  I want all of Him I can have.  I want to experience Him at the deepest level's I can, I want to have as much knowledge I can possibly have of Him.  I want to be one found faithful day after day being violent in pursuing my Bridegroom.  Nothing else matters, all else will fade away.  What are you seeking after for more of today?