Well I have officially been home for a month and I must say it's been an encouraging, challenging, interesting and stretching month! One of the things the Lord has been teaching me is how to live before His eyes alone. I am working two jobs now and I have noticed a strive for excellence within myself that I certainly did not have a year ago! I have worked both of these jobs before and when I would make a mistake I would simply let my boss know, apologize and move on in life. However now I've realized starvation within me to do a great job at whatever I'm asked to do. The other night I was closing by myself and I forgot to do the debit print out. Yes, big deal however I texted my boss after my shift letting him know so that he would be able to do it in the morning before the store opened. After texting him though I couldn't even fall asleep! I was so disappointed in myself for not doing the greatest I could've done. As I was lying there and praying about what on earth was wrong with me God asked me once again what defines me. I replied saying that my primary occupation was being Jesus' inheritance and walking in that role every moment of the day. He then spoke truth to my heart about staying steady; He asked me how I would feel if my boss would praise me up and down. Of course I replied saying how excited I would be and how reassured I would feel. Then I sensed Him saying that as a Christian I cannot sway too and fro when people either compliment what I've done or who I am or if people insult what I've done wrong and who I've become. At the end of the day my heart needs to be steady in the place of knowing that I am His inheritance and He is pleased with me.
Becoming twenty seems to have walked into my life with many huge decisions! I have to admit much of my day so often is looking at the pros and cons, the places where I can best place Christ as the joy set before me and being aware of where the Lord's peace follows me. I was watching a recent interview with Misty Edwards on the news and suddenly an old truth grabbed me once again. She spoke of the mundane realities of life until she had revelation on the Lord's eye always being on her. She used the phrase "suddenly every moment became epic." This just gripped me! The Lord's concern isn't if I go to Turkey and serve for two years or if I stay at home and get an education. He knows my willing heart, and my starvation for His presence not only in my own life but also that His presence would accompany me wherever I go. My concern should not be for where I am in two months but rather right here, right now how am I serving my King? Am I adoring Him? Am I loving Him with all that I am? Or am I too concerned with what's to come?
Prayer Meeting at my place tonight at 7:00 :) Email me at terri_brandt@hotmail.com for details!!
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