Home Life

     I hope this update finds you all well and falling more in love with Jesus every moment of the day!  I wanted to give you a quick update on me and what being at home looks like for me at the moment.  I am not doing extremely well in the health area.  It turns out during track 2 when I couldn't sleep it was a way for my body to tell me something was wrong...I wasn't so good at listening!  My liver, kidney's and heart are not functioning like a normal 20 year old.  This is not life threatening!  We are just glad we caught it now instead of ignoring it and having more damage done.  Please partner with me in praying for complete and total healing...all for God's glory!  Our family has decided to wait until June 1st to make a decision regarding ACTS school.  Pray that God will give us wisdom and freedom from selfish motives.  Thank you :)
     The Lord is so faithful...this seems to be such a theme for me day in and day out.  I must admit it has been extremely humbling to not have the energy I once had.  Honestly there is nothing quite as exciting to me then having two new concordances in front of me with a bunch of highlighters and my bible.  Spending time just searching out God's Word brings fuel to the fire inside of me unlike anything else!  I love it when the Holy Spirit just hits me with revelation that leaves me on my knees with tears in my eyes praising my Saviour.  Well lately I hardly have energy to get up in the morning.  I used to be the girl who got ready in 20 minutes...now I'm the two hour girl!  My mind just seems so slow and it takes my body so long to get going.  When it comes to devotions so often all I can do is meditate on one phrase...just like it sink into my heart and taste it's sweetness inside my mouth.  This has been so good and so hard!  What I would do to have the energy to read a book a week again and to study like crazy in my free time.  But can I tell you something?  God is not limited in anyway with my weakness.  In fact there are parts of it that He truly rejoices in.  Of course He is the God of healing and does not rejoice in sickness but parts of this allows me to lean on Him unlike ever before.  Do I truly believe that when my life isn't radically moving towards reaching my goals in study/intercession etc. that He is bigger than that?  Well let me reassure you that He is!  His grace truly is sufficient and I've learnt to instead of looking  back on my day and looking at what I all got done, I rather look at my heart posture.  How was I loving God with all I was even when I failed to intercede for as long as I used to?  Was I so consumed with being frustrated at myself that I forgot to love God in the midst of it?  I've learnt that every moment is such an opportunity from Him to fall more radically in love with Him and to truly walk in the fullness of being His inheritance.  This is never minimized by what the world throws at us.  No matter what...God's grace is sufficient for us to grab every moment of the day and pursue Him with all we've got, even if what we have is pretty much nothing.  The truth is the little we do have is just Him moving in us anyways!  Remember today that every moment your given today if a gift and a time for you to encounter Jesus.  He wants to encounter you more then you want to encounter Him!